MY MANY WORRIES

To watch all that is happening in Libya today, I am reminded of these words that was spoken by our Honourable PM Dato Seri Najib Tun Razak i.e. “Even if our bodies are crushed and our lives lost, brothers and sisters, whatever happens, we must defend Putrajaya”

Those are tough words, and one can visualized the sort of things that Najib can or want to do to defend his position in government.

My thoughts are now focused on Ghaddafi who has called upon his supporters to arms to crush the rebellious protestors. He must have realized that his power is fast slipping, and the only thing he knows to maintain power is in the use of force against the unarmed protestors.

I observe some similarity in the words of Najib and that of Ghaddafi. Although Najib did not use the words ‘arms’ to defend his position, he had used words like ‘bodies’, crushed’, lives lost’ and ‘whatever happens’ and these are strong words that are “riddled with hostility” and can cause “fear and apprehension” among the people. I am quite sure many harbours similar thoughts and apprehension, and as a retired military person, those words scare the guts off me.

I honestly do not know whether Naijb really meant what he said, or what was on his mind when he uttered those words. It really surprised me for I know Najib is such a gentle and likeable person. And for him to utter such words in a sentence makes him appear like Aldof Hitler or a clone Ghaddafi. I do not think any other leaders of the democratic world would use such strong words to defend their position in government. I did not hear the Prime Minister of Ireland used such words. And neither did the British Prime Minister and the US President. I do not know what the Sarawak CM would say in the up-coming state election.

As I get older, I worry about what our leaders say, and I have commented enough on what our Melaka CM Mohd Ali Rustam have said of PAS. I worry because I do not want my grandchildren to suffer a similar fate faced by the Egyptians or Libyans. I worry because I do not want this blessed nation of ours to nosedive into poverty and destruction. I worry because my sacrifice and that of many other soldiers, airmen and sailors before me who had sacrificed their lives in defence of this nation against a communist insurgency and resurrection will be forgotten. I worry because leaders today are no longer serious about building and unifying a nation. I worry about our politicians who only talks about winning elections with a bigger majority. I worry about the Malays that are getting more divided in the race for political power. I worry about the scale of corruption among the Malays that has penetrated all levels of government. I now begin to worry about our police force and the judiciary that is supposed to be the guidance peace, law and order and protector, have now shown themselves to be bias, incompetent and at times corrupt in handling cases. I can continue listing the worries that I have, but the more I think about it, the more worries I get.

I have been in this world for the last 67 years and I have seen and said enough. All said, I am not at all discouraged by what I see because I can still write and express my thoughts and feelings. It is only when I am dead that all ceases.


CRUSADE AGAINST CORRUPTION